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2008/5/29

非當偵探不可的日子(一)

星期二早上,家長匆匆通知一萬塊不見了,肯定是學生A帶來學校,胖虎以及弟兄們到我們班,請學生把書包打開看,連一千塊的影子都沒有,上個月九千也是這樣發生,沒有下落,兩個嫌疑犯B、C說,沒有證據不要污賴我,我會告訴媽媽(上次媽媽還特地到學校對我吼了幾聲~昏),從家裡拿錢的這個學生,星期五拿了同學10元買飲料(偷一萬分給別人,需要偷同學10元買飲料嗎?怪咖一個),偷錢的A寫下如果再偷錢,畢業旅行不去的狠話,這下子家裡不見一萬,畢業旅行也泡湯了。星期二的中午到整個下午,偷錢的A從家裡的傭人到隔壁班的同學再到高中部兩個學生,胡謅一遍,一干人嫌疑全部都抓到學務處問,沒有人承認(因為嫌犯B、C正在喝飲料打籃球~舒服中),A的媽媽又生氣又無奈,對A失望透頂,說要送她到警察局,下午就送去真恐嚇假筆錄的派出所,小嘟媽媽晚上抽空陪我過去派出所,說了學生一頓,我學到如何將學生說哭的方法,還有重要的反間諜法,說高級點可能是囚犯兩難之類的吧。
   隔天早上,學生B把投影機的玻璃打破(自己還在投影機上面貼上故障字眼的紙條),為了圓謊連別的老師都牽扯進去,說了一堆不關他的事,加上B恐嚇取財嫌疑很重,本人忍耐全失,馬上說要打電話給B母,並請B母為B負擔,說完,這~怎麼會有寶特瓶從後面飛到前面,阿~是B丟的,這是要丟我嗎?好像有丟的點遠,應該是在箭靶外了,馬上請隔壁班老師幫我看學生,會同學務處,詢問了B母,B母知道自己小孩可能拿了錢也丟了老師東西,B母願意將他先送到警察局真恐嚇假筆錄,接下來的時間,B就在警察局,我因此有了破一萬元誰拿的契機。待續~
2008/5/27

愛人

親愛的天父上帝,

因著你先愛我們,

使我們有祢住在我們裡面,

使我們能愛人,

然而我們常常不知如何正確的對待每個人,

但我們請求祢,讓我們時常記得仰望你,

定睛在你身上,尋求你對我們的計畫,

在弟兄姐妹裡面,我們若有互相得罪,

求主讓我們認罪,並互相代求,求您的饒恕,

求你的安慰,也願我們更深渴慕祢。

神就是愛;住在愛裡面的,就是住在神裡面,神也住在他裡面。

這樣,愛在我們裡面得以完全。

求主保守我們的心思意念,

我們的日子如何,力量也必如何。

我們這樣禱告是奉主耶穌基督的名求,阿們!

2008/5/23

紅點點黑點點

紅點點黑點點

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  教室後面的麥當勞微笑貼紙已經很久沒有使用了,自從上次張老師帶我們去吃完牛排後就沒有再更新了,不過因為這次的獎勵更大--是我們的墾丁畢業旅行,所以是值得等待的,張老師說,打架翹課偷東西共三次就不能去畢業旅行,還要留在學校裡面和工友先生一起勞動服務,到回收場撿垃圾,掃廁所,這種吃力不討好的事,才不要勒,而且我的畢業旅行的基金早就存好了。雖然這樣,但是我還是忍不住拿了同學桌上的十元去買飲料,因為我上次偷家裡的九千塊給同學,媽媽生氣以後就不給我零用錢了,我不想承認我有拿十元,因為這樣我又會被媽媽罵,還要被處罰。

  早上我們吃了張老師買的壽司,我想張老師已經忘記這件事,沒想到吃完壽司,張老師說如果中午前主動承認偷十元,就會原諒不處罰,如果中午以後都沒有人承認,全班都可能不能去畢業旅行,我很猶豫,下課我還因此狠狠的罵了那個被我偷十元的同學,但是我想到張老師應該希望我們都可以去畢業旅行,我想老師不會騙我,我在中午的時候,做了我自己都覺得不可思議的事,我居然跟老師承認我偷了十元,並且寫下悔過書,如果再偷一次,我就不去畢業旅行。

 

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  我常常在日記裡寫說,我很討厭她,常常偷我們的麥當勞卡片和錢,偷完還要兇我們,又不承認,一直哭說她沒有,還會指使別人做事情,不做就兇我們,雖然他們家境很好,甚麼都不缺,媽媽也很厲害,但我們常常覺得是受害者,沒有覺得她好。這次他又偷了同學錢,雖然沒有看到,但是我想八成是她不會錯,如果她這次不承認,全班都不能去畢業旅行,就害慘我們了,這樣我只會更討厭她,但是如果她承認,老師就會帶我們去畢業旅行,我們全班都在等她去自首,下課的時候我們也要她去承認,一直到中午要午休了,我們都在等她去找老師,她終於去找老師了,不知道會不會說實話。沒想到中午張老師帶著她進來,她跟老師說實話了,她如果再偷東西就不要去畢業旅行,真是不可思議,她居然承認了。

 

後記:處理九千元和十元的事,實在應該同等的處理態度,九千元的事就像羅生門,各說各話,沒有人要承認錢被誰拿走了,但家長的錢確實有不見,處理時採取爾虞我詐的策略,結果非常失敗,孩子沒有我們想像中簡單,他們也知道該如何規避,求取自己的利益,整個無力感從家長的生氣、孩子的不誠實開始引爆,我明白知道,我用的是自己的小聰明,我沒有依靠我的主。當十元的事件發生,我默默做了禱告,也用十分理性的方式跟學生說明,要面對的責任是大家一起背的(雖然不可能真的全班不去畢業旅行),但我希望學生們能在乎,包括老師的壽司,老師的愛和畢業旅行,承認錯誤的處罰是寫下自己不再犯的決定,以及未來再犯願意接受的處罰,我也很擔心他真的再犯,但這真是個人的決志與負責,求主保守他們。

2008/5/12

見証

各位弟兄姊妹平安:

  我是去年十二月九日在和平教會受洗成為基督徒。剛受洗完,對基督徒該有的喜樂生活充滿憧憬。覺得有神愛我、萬事應許我,我應該是個很平安喜樂的人。成為基督徒,應該會是個內心充滿愛且能豐盈有餘的給人。          

  我雖然見到了基督徒的美好標竿,卻常在方法上跌倒。有時覺得我怎麼會有那麼多憂傷、會有不當的生氣、甚至會有傷害別人的情緒?我不是已經知道上帝愛我,不是知道要愛別人的誡命,怎麼還有許多不好的情緒?

  慢慢的我體會到自己的不足以及對上帝的虧欠,我想要給卻沒有能力給。雖然這樣,我也知道無論我是否能做到愛上帝愛別人,上帝都先給了我這樣豐盛的愛與恩典,是這樣一個不配得到、白白領受的禮物。

  我深知上帝饒恕我的過犯,耶穌寶血洗淨我的罪。在決志受洗後,即使仍帶著血氣,很多事依舊表現不好,但我知道上帝仍願意愛我、管教我,祂不會丟棄我。我雖然知道我難以做到一個真正好的基督徒,但我深信上帝能幫助我。

  同事袁老師是我想要傳福音的對象。他問我,為什麼那麼多人想要中樂透彩?我回答他因為有很多獎金。袁老師說,因為每個人都想要改變自己的一生,所以有人選擇買樂透彩。我對這樣的問答感到驚訝,原來信耶穌基督跟買樂透的目的是一樣的,我們都想要改變人生。但不同的是,我們只要願意,每個人都可以得到改變一生的機會,而不單單只有得到頭獎的那一個人。

  更令我震驚的是,我在與袁老師討論耶穌受難記這部電影時,袁老師甚至有感而發的說,這輩子再也找不到像耶穌這樣,可以學習更多的對象了。我在這樣傳福音的情況裡,更深切感受到對上帝的信心。

  之後在袁老師家裡見到父母親對孩子的細心呵護、耐心照顧,即使孩子再怎麼任性,有著自己的意見,不順從父母,父母依舊深愛著他的小孩。 看在眼裡,使我對自已的父母有著更深的感念,也知道難以回報。同時感受到上帝對想要傳福音的我,原來有著更多的安排,這真是超乎所想。

    對我來說生命是在相愛、傷害、原諒、相愛裡不停流轉、不斷學習上帝的愛。我知道自己的軟弱與欠缺,無法像上帝愛我一樣去愛所有的人,尤其是去愛那些讓我無法愛的人。禱告求主幫助我盡心盡力順服祂、愛祂也愛人,也求主幫助我時時記得數算祂的恩典。

   耶穌基督的愛是使人成長得智慧的愛。願我一生都能有這樣的愛, 求主讓我有一個被改變的生命,感謝主豐豐盛盛的愛。

 

 

 

 

2008/5/9

雲上太陽

如何安慰別人
 
雲上太陽
 
無論是住在美麗的高山,
或是躺臥在陰暗的幽谷;
當你抬起頭,你將會發現,
主已為你我而預備。
雲上太陽,它總不改變,
雖然小雨灑在臉上,
雲上太陽,它總不改變,
哈!它不改變。
 

2008/5/7

使徒行傳17-22章

17:28 我們生活、動作、存留,都在乎他。就如你們作詩的,有人說:我們也是他所生的。
17:29 我們既是神所生的,就不當以為神的神性像人用手藝、心思所雕刻的金、銀、石
17:30 當人類處在蒙昧無知的時候,上帝不加深究,但現在他命令全人類要離棄邪惡的道路,吩咐各處的人都要悔改。
17:31 因為他已經定了日子,要藉著他所揀選的一個人用公義來審判全世界,由於使這一個人從死裡復活,他已經把憑據給了全人類。
20:19  在謙卑和憂傷中侍奉主,又由於猶太人的謀害而經歷許多磨練。
20:23-24  我只知道,在各城市聖靈都指示我,有監獄跟災難等著我。但是我並不珍惜自己的性命,為的是要完成我的使命,成就主耶穌交給我的工作,就是見證上帝恩典的福音。
20:28 你們自己要謹慎,也為聖靈所付託你們照顧的全群謹慎,要牧養上帝的教會-就是他藉著自己兒子的死所換來的。
20:32 現在我把你們交託在上帝手裡和祂恩典的信息中,他能夠堅定你們的信心,又把他為自己的子民所預備的福澤賜給你們。
20:35 我在各種事上給你們留下榜樣,告訴你們應該這樣勤勞工作來幫助軟弱的人,要記住主耶穌親自說過的話"施比受更有福"。
21:13 我為著主耶穌的緣故,不但在耶路撒冷被綑綁,就是死在那裏也心甘情願的。
21:14 我們無法說服他,只說:願主的旨意成就。
 
 
 
 
 
2008/5/1

願愛你超越生命中一切

深深愛祢
我生命中最渴望的一件事,切慕你,單單尋求你,
用我全心全意,用我全力愛你,
敬拜你讓你榮耀充滿全地。
深深愛你,耶穌,深深愛你,耶穌,
我愛你超越生命中一切,
深深愛你,耶穌,深深愛你,耶穌,
哦,我愛你,耶穌。
 
我的心你要稱頌耶和華
我的心,你要稱頌耶和華,不可忘記祂的恩惠。
祂赦免你一切過犯罪孽,醫治你疾病復原。
我的心,你要稱頌耶和華,不可忘記祂的恩惠。
祂以仁愛慈悲為你冠冕,為受屈的人伸冤。
天離地有何等的高,祂的慈愛也可等的深,
東離西有多麼的遠,祂使我的過犯也離我多遠
耶和華有憐憫的愛,且有豐盛無盡的恩典,
從亙古直到永遠,耶和華祂是我的神。
 
凡事都能做
信是未曾看見,依然仰望十架,
是完全交托,深知主已掌權。
我靠著那加給我力量的,凡事都能做,
或風浪或低谷,主平安在我心,
我靠著那加給我力量的,凡事都能做,
行在主的旨意,我凡事都能做。
 

「我來本不是召義人,乃是召罪人。 」

「我來本不是召義人,乃是召罪人。 」(馬可福音二章十七節)

耶和華說:我知道我向你們所懷的意念是賜平安的意念,不是降災禍的意念,要叫你們末後有指望(耶利米書29:11)

有個主內姊妹將以下文章翻譯:http://www.wretch.cc/blog/fool4jesus&article_id=10133017 

原文網址:http://jaesonma.com/2008/04/pray-for-edison-chen-me-and-world.html

Pray for Edison Chen, Me and the World

 


Dear Bros and Sis in Christ,

I have a very urgent and special prayer request. For nearly 2 months now I have not announced publicly, even to my prayer team to protect the confidentiality of the fragile situation I am about to tell you. In February the Holy Spirit led me supernaturally to a special young man named "Edison Chen." He is a famous pop star in Hong Kong and China who recently this year was involved in a internet sex scandal that received worldwide attention. My heart broke for this young man when I heard the news. I prayed for him to find the love of God and the forgiveness that is offered through Jesus Christ. I also prayed that God would use this situation for greater good, somehow to redeem and bless the youth and families of Asia. Through a series of divine circumstances in February God brought me to Edison, I shared the Gospel and God's personal prophetic word to him and Edison gave his life to Christ. His heart was genuine, his repentance was true, and I was so happy to see a new brother find God's forgiveness, mercy and grace. God truly loves Edison. The days after, many others in his family and circle of friends came to know Christ. It was a supernatural experience, that only God could orchestrate.

Yesterday night, I found out that one of the largest secular magazines in Hong Kong/Asia had caught wind of Edison's conversion and wrote a front page story on our friendship. I was very much in shock to hear about this because I had not spoken about this publicly for nearly 2 months. I was more surprised when my contact in Hong Kong told me the article was 100% positive, shared about my own conversion experience, my personal ministry and how Edison is starting a new life and new path in Christ. Honestly, when I heard this news knowing that millions all over Asia would read this uplifting article and possibly find Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior, I wept.

I wept with joy for Edison and all the millions in Asia who have been negatively effected by the sin & immorality that was spread. I knew God was restoring Edison, a prodigal son who had returned to his heavenly Father. I wept, because God spoke to me when I met Edison that He would bring greater good from this scandal than evil. That what Satan meant for evil, God would turn for good. I am thankful to God because I know millions who read this magazine will see that God has forgiven Edison Chen and all the victims, showing them His love and mercy. Therefore, those who read this article after realizing that God has forgiven Edison, will also realize that Jesus can forgive their sins and give them hope for a new life in Christ. Please pray that God uses this testimony to bless the masses with the power of the Gospel. Good News is spreading in Asia, Jesus died on the cross and resurrected on the third day so our sins could be forgiven and anyone who believes in Him will not die, but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)

Now I ask you for prayer. Edison Chen, the Victims and myself need your prayers more than ever before.

Please pray for Edison Chen and others...

1. Pray for protection from media pressure: There is a lot of pressure with an public article like this to perform as a Christian. Please pray that people realize Edison and others who have become Christian are still a work in progress. As I am a work in progress myself. No one is perfect, we are all human and we all need love and forgiveness. God doesn't expect us to be perfect, but to trust in His mercy and grace. Pray that God would protect this story and situation against gossip, accusation or deception, but only the truth of Jesus Christ would continually be uplifted in the media.

2. Please pray millions of Christians around the world would pray for Edison, his family, the victims to be strengthened in faith, comforted and restored to be a testimony to society in a positive way. Pray that the many victims of this situation would also find faith and forgiveness in Christ.

3. Pray that many who read this article and story would be saved. Pray that those who read this testimony of Edison's repentance and faith in Christ, my own personal testimony will realize that God loves them also, that they can be forgiven of their sins and have a new life in Jesus Christ. Pray as they realize God has forgiven Edison, He will also forgive them.

4. Pray that my family and I would be a great testimony for Christ. Please pray that God would protect and help me and my family in America and Hong Kong to be good witnesses for Christ. I am returning to Hong Kong in May for ministry and I need God's wisdom in how to talk about this story to others so that they see Christ and not me or anyone else. May He keep me, Edison and all others humble, so that we decrease but Christ would increase.

5. Ask God to turn what was meant for evil into good. Pray that through this scandal, that greater good would come out of this than evil. Pray that millions will be inspired, touched and put their faith in Jesus Christ across the world. This scandal was probably one of the biggest news stories in Asia in the last decade, many were adversely affected, but God now can turn the tide and bring hope and healing to all the world and turn tragedy into triumph!

Lastly, I just really want you all to keep this low key and simply "pray" if you read this. Pray for Edison, he is like a brother to me. I love him and he has a good heart. Many people will try to ridicule or doubt what has happened, but it doesn't matter because I know him and he is not only truly repentant, but he is doing his best to become a better man, change his ways, and live for God. He is a good person. We all make mistakes. I urge the public who reads this, judge not or you will be judged as the Bible says. Forgive Edison, the victims and ask God to forgive your own sins, because none of us are perfect and we all need Jesus forgiveness. Edison is a good man, God loves him, knows his heart is truly sorry and will restore him to be a great role model in society. I know it, I have faith not only for him but for all who are affected by this. Pray for Edison's spiritual restoration. Because t's not easy, Edison, his family, his friends and myself are all God's work in progress and we need prayers, patience, mercy and grace from everyone to not point the finger, gossip or anything else, but to simply pray asking God to make us more like Christ each day and to be a testimony for Him in this generation. May God receive all the glory in this.

Below is the magazine article. God is faithful. Please pray right now for God's will to be done. Thank you!

Under the mercy,

JMA